Flowers Along the Way

Two people had inherited land and each wanted to use it to set up a settlement. Barren...

My send-off from Fate and Challenge

When I ended my membership and left the team of the Fate and Challenge Association I have left this farewell message to the readers of their website:

Dear readers

This is Max with a personal message today. It is now the 14th of December 2022, and January will mark 14 years of me being active online on the topic of pedophilia. The activism and peer-support are very important to me and they have become central themes of my life.

In the last 3-4 years, unfortunately, I have started to feel increasing tension and frustration with my own team. There is agreement on the goal, but is that enough?

I think Fate and Challenge's team mates lacks structure and reliability among ourselves. Long discussions led to no real agreement, clearer wording of team-decisions brought only little stability, and addressing serious concerns rarely led to a change in behavior. Years of futile attempts to better our working atmosphere have eaten me up. After the events of early November, I finally realized: I no longer have the energy for this. That is why I am now taking my hat and leaving our team and the Fate and Challenge as an association.

What remains? I intend to continue in the field of education and self-help after a recovery phase. To what extent is still unsure.
What has led to this? Since the last trigger has unfortunately been something, that has happened quite publicly in the forum I think giving a rough outline is appropriate at this point:

This is a tale I originally wrote in 2011. The metaphor at its core stems from my father, when we talked about my pedophilia. It is part of the appendix of my book “Für ein Kinderlachen” under the title “Die Rosenmetapher” (the rose-metaphor). For several years it served as the introduction to the...