My Texts

A collection of current stories and essays, and an archive of my older writings from my time at Fate and Challenge. Most of the older pieces will be in German only, newer ones will usually come with an English AND a German version.

Is your journey just a means to reach some goal, or is each step already part of making it real? A story about the difference the path makes, that one chooses.
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Flowers Along the Way

Two people had inherited land and each wanted to use it to set up a settlement. Barren...

My send-off from Fate and Challenge

When I ended my membership and left the team of the Fate and Challenge Association I have left this farewell message to the readers of their website:

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Dear readers

This is Max with a personal message today. It is now the 14th of December 2022, and January will mark 14 years of me being active online on the topic of pedophilia. The activism and peer-support are very important to me and they have become central themes of my life.

In the last 3-4 years, unfortunately, I have started to feel increasing tension and frustration with my own team. There is agreement on the goal, but is that enough?

I think Fate and Challenge's team mates lacks structure and reliability among ourselves. Long discussions led to no real agreement, clearer wording of team-decisions brought only little stability, and addressing serious concerns rarely led to a change in behavior. Years of futile attempts to better our working atmosphere have eaten me up. After the events of early November, I finally realized: I no longer have the energy for this. That is why I am now taking my hat and leaving our team and the Fate and Challenge as an association.

What remains? I intend to continue in the field of education and self-help after a recovery phase. To what extent is still unsure.
What has led to this? Since the last trigger has unfortunately been something, that has happened quite publicly in the forum I think giving a rough outline is appropriate at this point:

Diese Erzählung schrieb ich im Jahr 2011. Der zugrundeliegende Vergleich aber stammt von meinem Vater. Unter dem Titel „Die Rosenmetapher“ ist der Text auch im Anhang meines Buches „Für ein Kinderlachen“ enthalten. Und er bildete einige Jahre lang die Einleitung zur Rubrik „Missbrauch und Kinderp...

Als ich dieses Erlebnis Anfang 2009 für SuH aufschrieb stand ich nach dem Ende der Therapie noch immer sehr unter dem starken Eindruck der Überraschung, dass mir als pädophilem Menschen ein verantwortungsvoller Umgang mit Kindern überhaupt möglich war und dass ich ihn nicht einmal als allzu schw...