This is my personal weblog about the topic of pedophilia to be able to add my two cents to the discussion. My favorite topics are peer-support, prevention of abuse, raising awareness and fighting the strong stigmatisation non-offending people with a sexual preference for children face.
I am planning to run this as a bilingual blog in german and english. Why? Because I believe that international networking and visibility are very important and that support projects should exchange ideas and experiences more often. The bilingual nature of this blog of course depends on how much energy I will be able to put into this going forward. But my aim is to provide as many information as possible in both languages by using DeepL and manually revising them. If I got some things wrong, please let me know.
I am best available via e-mail at mail@max2cents.eu.
In case of technical issues with my server, an alternative email address is max2cents@proton.me.
Courtesy of Spolek ČEPEK it is possible to support my work financially. The technology and services I use at the moment cost roughly 95€ up to about 200€ per year (the exact costs are still to be determined). That is quite a lot to me (I hope to find more economical alternatives in the future). So if you like what I do please donate via ČEPEK: money you transfer to the following bank account will automatically be recognised as dedicated to my activities (this blog + Shadows Project):
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Some people may know me as a former board member of the Fate and Challenge Association (FCA) or “Schicksal und Herausforderung e.V.” in German since 2011, a German organization that has developed from a website about non-offending pedophiles founded in 2006.
I am a male in my late 30s and am attracted not only to women but even more to prebubescent and teenage girls. Sexually and emotionally there are far fewer adult women I find attractive in any profound way. Scientists call this sexual preference non-exclusive pedophilia. Since that term is strongly linked to child abuse in many peoples’ perception I will also make clear that I of course strongly reject sexual contact with children. It is terribly hurtful to children and any sane human being should ackowledge that. (Though I dare to hope that one day I won’t have to state that explicitly anymore, just like heterosexual people don’t have to explicitly distance themselves from rape)
When I noticed the way I felt wasn’t the usual way, male sexuality worked (my coming-in) at ~20, I already knew that I never wanted to hurt a child: that was my biggest fear. I asked for help at Don’t Offend (to some better known as Prevention Project “Dunkelfeld”) which was a very young project back then and thankfully they were willing to help. After doing 1 year of therapy and coming to terms with my sexuality, I decided not to keep quiet about it but to write about my experiences openly. Not only to process what I had learned myself, but also to make my experience available to others. Other people who are looking for answers to burning questions and may feel lost right now — just like I did after my coming-in.
During this whole time NewMan and I answered countless e-mails, provided help to individuals, answered media inquiries and contributed to articles, documentaries and reports in German and also in English media. See a list of my public relations work up to date here.
Since 2011 my main focus has always been raising awareness/education about the topic of pedophilia and personal peer-support/counseling. That is what I want to continue.